60 hours this week!

One of these days I  will have time to work out again.  I will really be ready to get my own hours.  Right now I am working under my  preceptor's schedule and it's running me ragged.  I put in a request today for weekend options so I am praying that is it's God's will it will happen.  My weight is staying the same and my body is taking a beating.  I can lose several pounds throughout the day while working but then gain it right back on the off day in between.  I need to get back to the gym but between working the hospital, the daycare and studying I can't imagine how I can make it work.  Sorry I am doing such a bad job with the blog and my weight loss but a few more weeks and I will be on my own schedule and then I can get back in swing of things.

Burning the cals on the floor

Who would have ever thought that I would get such a good workout working as a nurse.  For 12 hours straight I am on my feet racing from room to room with only 30 minutes for lunch.  This morning I weighed in at 248, the problem is on the off days I am to tired and find my body wanting to eat to make up for the days I don't get to.  Now I need to find a balance between the two.  Hopefully I can keep burning the calories and not let my body adjust to walking so far every work day.

Is my heart happy?

Ok I'm back on the road to making my heart happy.  The weight at this point in time is 253 but this will not be my main focus instead it is to make my heart happy.  This morning I started off with a subway breakfast sandwich using egg whites and then had a yogurt fruit parfait for snack.  Lunch was a turkey sandwich on low cal wheat bread with some popcorn.  Dinner was gumbo over a bed of whole grain rice.  Today I had to get my oil changed and usually sit in the waiting room but not today.  To make my heart happy I took a walk around the parking lot while I waited for them to finish.  Not the greatest day but for the most part I feel good about today.  Tomorrow I am back at the hospital and will be walking for 12 straight hours.  Lets see if I can eat right to keep my heart happy.

An early morning Epiphany

Yesterday after I posted I had an epiphany (even though I barely know what that means). I realized where I got off track in my weight loss battle.  It happened in July of last year.  When I first started this blog it was as the name implies for my heart.  I started the journey not so much worried about weight loss but worrying about whether what I was eating was good for my heart or not.  By making healthy choices the weight began to peel off and my blood pressure and cholesterol began to change.  By July I was losing weight and I knew that I was graduating nursing school so I set a weight loss goal to reach by graduation.  Looking back I know realize this was a big mistake because I began to focus on the scale much more than my heart.  What I have fought since July is discouragement and going back and forth on my weight loss battle which should have just been a get healthy and stay healthy battle.  I found myself satisfied during Christmas just to maintain my weight rather than making healthy choices.  So it begins again, eating for my heart and the healthiness will soon follow.  The truth is if I never lost another pound and ate healthy every day I would be better off than losing another 50 pounds and eating unhealthy. 

Who thought the new year could be so busy?

I can't believe I would ever be so busy that I couldn't take a few minutes to blog.  My schedule has been so off that it is really becoming crazy and I haven't even switched to midnights yet.  This week I worked 3, 14 hour days and one 11 hour and a nice short 7 hour day.  The problem with working like this is that I have no time to plan.  What I find myself doing, (which I know better) is eating when I get home.  With only a 30 minute lunch break you would think it would be easy to peel the weight right off but eating late at night is a step towards disaster.  I am going to try to sit down this weekend and make an eating plan that puts me back on the road to success.  Just to show how mixed up my schedule is I am typing this blog at 4:00 A.M. I was so looking forward to sleeping in when I went to bed at 11:00 last night.

Working makes me hungry

I started off the morning 250.4 pounds and headed to work for a 13 hour work day.  I ate a turkey sausage breakfast sandwich for lunch and leftover chicken and dumplings with some very good veggies for lunch.  My problem was I starved all day long.  I have no idea why but I could not get full I finally bought a candy bar (even though I really did not want it and it didn't even start to fill me up.  This was not a mental hunger I was genuinely hungry and have no idea why.  When I got off work I ran by McDonald's and ordered a double burger without cheese a small fry.  So much for eating healthy but tonight's weight upon arriving home was only 252.  Not sure what kicked my metabolism in but something did.  It maybe that I walk continuously for 12 hours straight at work. I am really curious how far we walk a day (one of the nurses heard it equaled about 5 miles a day)  back at it tomorrow and hopefully better snacks and a better plan.

Jan 1 2012

Here we are January 1 and ready to start fresh.  Now what is crazy is I have never started my resolutions on Jan 1, I have always waited until Jan 2.  Why, because I consider the 1st a holiday.  I know there are leftovers laying around and the day is for lounging so tomorrow morning begins my journey.  My goal for Dec was to stay below 250 and I did real good and just crossed over this morning.  The goal for this year is 40 more pounds off.  I would love to make a bigger goal but doing 40 a year has seemed to work real well without torturing myself.  40 pounds is just a little over 3 pounds a month and is very feasable.  My plan is to get involved in weight lifting as it seemed to be my biggest benifit. 

Biggest weakness last year was stress eating.  With ending school, taking my state boards and starting a new job.

Biggest challenge this year will be switching to midnights and learning how to eat while working 14 hour days. and squeezing in workouts.